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Suicide
in Ireland
Eternal Smile
Name Withheld
Ill remember that second of the day so clearly. The
looks on their faces, their words first poured out. I thought this must
be a joke, it just couldnt be. Confusion set in would I cry?
Would I shout? Those first days of shock became a blur and went quickly.
In our minds we still held onto those eyes, that smile. Of everyone I
knew I wouldve picked you last. Well just have to get use
to not seeing you for a while. Such a good friend to us all, it seems
so unfair. In you we confided it our hopes, dreams and fears. So much
going for you you had so much happiness to share. A good life cut
short, nothing left now but memories.
No one will ever know what was going through your mind.
At that second you decided your life was to end. You may be happier now,
but we still need to cry. Someday, somewhere, we hope well laugh
with you again.
Nothing, absolutely nothing can prepare you for suicide.
No news reports, articles, features or statistics can ever inform you
enough. Its nothing new to anyone that the rates of suicide among
young people have risen so much in recent years. But still the sense of
disbelief you feel when someone you know has decided its too much
for them and that they would rather not fight their private demons anymore
is overwhelming.
In the small close-knit community where I live we all grew
up with deaths of young and old neighbours affecting us someway or another.
But nothing could have foreseen the effect that a suicide among us would
have on this place. Never before had I witnessed something rock the community
so much, tear it apart and leave it raw to all kinds of emotions. But,
on the other hand, never had I seen the community pull together so much,
with young and old alike experiencing similar pain.
They tell you to be aware of the signs and always be aware.
That is the problem. In my case, there were no signs and this makes it
all the much more unbearable. When someone, you believe you know inside
out does the unthinkable, without a warning, a sign, a cry for help, nothing
it is the worst feeling imaginable.
Grief, shock, anger and guilt are just some of the emotions
I experienced after it all. I truly believe if my friend knew the hurt,
pain and anguish we were all to go through during those days of the funeral,
they just might have given it a second thought. No one knows whats
going on inside any individuals mind no matter how well you think
you know them. Suicide is becoming too common. People need to be encouraged
to talk more, especially young men. I truly believe that "a problem
shared is a problem halved".
For many people good counselling services are available
following this kind of bereavement. Unfortunately for us, this service
was not on hand at the time. We have helped each other through the unbearable
times up to a certain point. But in the end, we all deal with death in
different ways. Everyday I see people around me still in pain, still grieving
and still in shock. This is something that nobody will ever forget and
will haunt us for the rest of our lives. True, it gets easier with time
but we will never forget it. Access to a trained professional should be
provided as a rule. Where suicide is concerned, it could help heal many
open wounds or in some cases even prevent many more.
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